Last night I got caught in a swirl of anxiety as I was trying to go to sleep. It was dark, and raining, and I began to hear sounds. My brain convinced me that these sounds were scary things rather than rain on trees or branches hitting other objects.
I turned on the light, thinking this would alleviate some of the anxiety. Sometimes I am afraid of the dark, even being 25. Then, there was a window directly past the light, and I was somehow convinced that someone was standing outside the window, watching me. Eventually, I had to turn the light off.
I got to sleep, though I did wake up terrified about an hour later. But this is a thing that happens.
Anxiety grips me and my brain finds all these reasons to be terrified even though I’m probably perfectly safe doing whatever it is that I’m doing. I wish I knew how to not follow the thought spirals down, but thus far I’ve been unsuccessful.