Sometimes, you can’t just keep trying. Sometimes, it feels like the weights of your efforts don’t quite balance the scales with all that’s being expected of you. And sometimes, even though you know you tried your hardest, it’s not good enough for the people who check the scales.
When I started this journey more than two years ago, I never thought any of this was even possible. I worked so hard to do everything asked of me, and in many cases I believe I exceeded expectations. And now, I’m making the decision that’s best for my mental health and the worst for all the effort I put into it.
I lost parts of myself trying to do this. I hope I can get them back.